Before you’re asking what’s wrong with me…to be honest….I’m thinking the same…;-)
First I’ve been neglecting my blog and by doing that neglecting myself, cause I like writing!
A first attempt to write again was last month and now two blogs in one weekend…
Maybe I’m having a weekend full of inspiration…I don’t know, but I can’t seem to stop writing 🙂
So here I am, writing what’s on my mind.
Today I listened to a song….listening to that song made me realise how important it became to me in the past months… Sometimes there’s just so much more to a song.
Music has been part of my life for as long as I remember. It’s something that I always enjoyed and it’s something that just always has been there. Over the years my love for music grew and I would be lost without it. So many times songs were part of certain situations, happy or tough, in my life.
Back to the song I listened to today….a song that became part of my life in the past months…
A song I can so relate to and listened to so much since it’s been posted on soundcloud.
I remember listening to it for the first time and instantly being hit by it, after playing it once I just had to listen to it over and over again.
Every time I hear it it makes me think about a certain situation in my life.
A situation I wrote a poem about today:
I feel trapped…trapped inside
Can’t make up my mind
Choose between evils
All I want to do is hide
It’s like I’m in a labyrinth
A labyrinth with two ways out
Ways leading to places I don’t want to be
I’m scared and overwhelmed by doubt
I know the first of the two ways
A painful way
A way I can’t control
It changes, gets worse day by day
The second way is uncertain
The outcome unknown
A way of limitations and pain
A way I don’t want to go
I want to ignore it all
I want to hide
pretend it’s not there….
But I can’t ignore it
I can’t hide
I have to face it
Need to make up my mind
How will I be able to choose?
I don’t know…
I have to choose between evils
And I’m trapped, trapped in a labyrinth
Waiting for strenght…
Waiting for clarity…
Waiting for something…
Something that’ll take away my anxiety
But I got hope
Hope to find the strength
To make a decision
A decision that turns out to be the right one in the end
The song that became part of all this is “Headstrong “ by Robb Murphy
A song that says it all….I need my headstrong…my headstrong to make the right decision.